Sunday, September 18, 20111:03 AM
■ 有个角落 很黑暗
此时此刻 我真的很想要出去吹吹风
心情真的很不好
干嘛为了一件小事生气我？
今天不懂怎么搞的
心情真的很不好
干嘛为了一件小事生气我？
而你生气的理由又是什么？
我做错了什么吗？
我表达能力差你又不是不懂
搞到现在这样 你很喜欢吗？
搞到现在这样 你很喜欢吗？
今天不懂怎么搞的
动不动就有种想发脾气 想骂人的冲动
但我一直在控制自己
因为真的不值得 发了脾气 不止自己没心情
另一方也会没心情
但我一直在控制自己
因为真的不值得 发了脾气 不止自己没心情
另一方也会没心情
何必我要搞到这样呢？
唯独在庙里时
唯独在庙里时
我的心 真的很安宁 很平静 很轻松 很快乐
感觉很轻快
明天就要考试了 我书都还没学完
我在干嘛？！
感觉很轻快
明天就要考试了 我书都还没学完
我在干嘛？！
除了压力 很累 很烦之外
没有任何快乐在我的脑海里
心里想的 除了未来 还是未来
我不能再慢了
我已经迟了很多步
我不想考出烂成绩
没有任何快乐在我的脑海里
心里想的 除了未来 还是未来
我不能再慢了
我已经迟了很多步
我不想考出烂成绩
我想要一个好成绩 让家人看得起我的好成绩
但有时候 我真的很累
累到什么都不想做 什么都不想管
只想要在球场上 快乐地打着球
只想要在泳池里 快乐地游泳
只想要在沙滩上 放肆地呐喊
真的 真的很累
累到什么都不想做 什么都不想管
只想要在球场上 快乐地打着球
只想要在泳池里 快乐地游泳
只想要在沙滩上 放肆地呐喊
真的 真的很累
:'(
Labels: life
Saturday, September 10, 20113:30 AM
■ Sighs.
Since when I became so emotional again ?
Since when my mind is full of negative thinking ?
Since when I became just like before again ?
Since when my mind is full of negative thinking ?
Since when I became just like before again ?
Sighs.
I just did my hard to change n I really did it, to changed myself become positive.
But why ? Why is it now I'm so emotional again ?
It is because of stress or what ?
I really hate myself being like that but dunno why my mind just won't stop thinking bout those negative thinking!
But I can't hate myself, I should love myself more.
What am I thinking ?
F***!
But why ? Why is it now I'm so emotional again ?
It is because of stress or what ?
I really hate myself being like that but dunno why my mind just won't stop thinking bout those negative thinking!
But I can't hate myself, I should love myself more.
What am I thinking ?
F***!
I'm lost.
I had lost my mind.
I dunno what am I thinking now and I dunno why I can't control myself sometimes.
PLEASE !
WAKE UP !
Ain;t nobody gonna rescue u except urself k ?
Please love urself more and appreciate urself.
I had lost my mind.
I dunno what am I thinking now and I dunno why I can't control myself sometimes.
PLEASE !
WAKE UP !
Ain;t nobody gonna rescue u except urself k ?
Please love urself more and appreciate urself.
Garrrrrgh !
Sometimes I really feel like saying,
F*** MY LIFE !
Sometimes I really feel like saying,
F*** MY LIFE !
Labels: life
Friday, September 9, 20111:29 AM
■ Mock Exam
Mock exam -
It's going to start at this coming 19th.
Prepare ?
I'm not prepare yet.
Can the time stop ?
I know it's impossible right ?
If nw I just try my hard to study, is there's still time ?
Recently my mood is really down.
I can moody in sudden without reason.
Feel like crying while I'm alone or quite.
When think bout my future, my heart if full of fear.
Except that, there's nothing else.
I'd been despise by those ppl so long and I wanna prove them that I'm not what they think.
But I always failed. Failed to prove to them.
But I have to thanks them.
Because of them, i just got the power to make myself focus in study and basketball.
Yes. Everyone got haters, no one would be perfect. I know.
But I'm trying to be perfect.
I ain't got money, ain't got pretty face, ain't got perfect body shape.
But at least I'm trying my best to be kind to everyone.
But sometimes I'm really tired of this life.
I'm not saying everyone around me but some of u like to be insatiable.
It's hard to be a good person, but it's easy to be bad.
To myself :
Ur life are just getting better, please don't destroy it by urself agn.
Please don't hurt anyone that u love anymore, it will hurt urself too.
Do u wanna see them hurt by u agn?
It's unfair for them.
Yes. I know u been hurt deeply before but please don't take it as a revenge.
You are not that kind of person and they had change to become better.
Forget bout before and forgive them.
Give them a chance.
U love them very much, they love u very much too.
So please don't hurt the ppl u love anymore. Treat them just like before.
It'll make u suffer and they will feel it too.
Take off ur mask and show the real u to them.
Don't make urself suffer agn, please.
Appreciate urself and everyone would love u.
It's going to start at this coming 19th.
Prepare ?
I'm not prepare yet.
Can the time stop ?
I know it's impossible right ?
If nw I just try my hard to study, is there's still time ?
Recently my mood is really down.
I can moody in sudden without reason.
Feel like crying while I'm alone or quite.
When think bout my future, my heart if full of fear.
Except that, there's nothing else.
I'd been despise by those ppl so long and I wanna prove them that I'm not what they think.
But I always failed. Failed to prove to them.
But I have to thanks them.
Because of them, i just got the power to make myself focus in study and basketball.
Yes. Everyone got haters, no one would be perfect. I know.
But I'm trying to be perfect.
I ain't got money, ain't got pretty face, ain't got perfect body shape.
But at least I'm trying my best to be kind to everyone.
But sometimes I'm really tired of this life.
I'm not saying everyone around me but some of u like to be insatiable.
It's hard to be a good person, but it's easy to be bad.
To myself :
Ur life are just getting better, please don't destroy it by urself agn.
Please don't hurt anyone that u love anymore, it will hurt urself too.
Do u wanna see them hurt by u agn?
It's unfair for them.
Yes. I know u been hurt deeply before but please don't take it as a revenge.
You are not that kind of person and they had change to become better.
Forget bout before and forgive them.
Give them a chance.
U love them very much, they love u very much too.
So please don't hurt the ppl u love anymore. Treat them just like before.
It'll make u suffer and they will feel it too.
Take off ur mask and show the real u to them.
Don't make urself suffer agn, please.
Appreciate urself and everyone would love u.
Labels: life