Tuesday, January 19, 20106:09 PM

■ Unlucky day

I hate today ...
Haish ....
Today I'm really very unlucky ...
Haish ....
Many things happen in a day ...
Thought today will be a very happy day ....
But its a nightmare AGAIN ....
Haish ....

Morning , Afternoon and Evening ...
Already happened so many unhappy things ...
I dunno what will happen tonight ....
I dunno what am I going to do tonight ....
I feel wan cry out loudly now ...
But I can't ....
I have to learn to be strong ...
I have to learn how to confort self ....
Cause I scare someday I'll be alone ....
I'll din have any friends ....
My family will abandon me ....
And someone abandon will me too ...
And left only me walking on the street ....
No one will help me and be my listener ....
Just myself ....
In my world ....
I really scare this day will come ....
I don't want to be alone ...
I.HATE.ALONE :(

Now I feel like that my world is dark again ....
I'm blind again ....
I'm trying to brighten up my world but I couldn't ...
I couldn't do it myself ....
I couldn't ....
I'm trying to be a positive ppl but I can't ...
People around me always hurting me ...
Even though stay at home ...
I can't feel any warm ...
The things that I only feel is ...
Is ...
I dunno how to say ...
It makes my heart feel very cold ....
It makes my heart feel very uncomfortable ...
It makes me hard to breathe .....
Argh !
:(

I.hate.today
I.hate.this.month
I.hate.this.year
:(

PurpleFreako

Labels: dying inside

one